*~Broken Promises~*

Sunday, November 14, 2004

[[Homeless child??]]

Came back home on friday with a happy feeling to surprise my brother and mum cos has been sometime since I am home and guess what I was indeed being welcomed by them with " WHY ARE YOU HOME?" for a moment i was like what the hell am I back home.. should have stayed in bugis for the rest of the weekend rest tidy up my room read my books..

Fine I thought had a good sleep then forget about all the shit.. woke up next day and went out to suntec . It was so crowded everyone with family or loved one eating at restaurant . Come to think of it I have never been to a decent restaurant to eat with my family HAPPILY... not to say restaurant dunno for how many donkey years I haven eat with them in hawker center ..pathetic ya? *haiz*

Came back home at about ten plus and went down at half past eleven to meet my primary school frenx.. it was one of their birthday and we give the birthday boy a small surprise =) and then someone suggest to go to crystal jade for supper .. the birthday boy paid for it and we ourselves paid for the cake and the cab fare.. really enjoyed meeting these school mates , come to think of it we have known each other for more than 10 years le ..times really flies. All was well till they pop me a question " where am I staying? why not staying at home?" For a moment i still got to smile and say "cos it is near my workplace" ..that was part of the reason but there are other reason too.. why I have a home I must go and stay at my cousin place? Why must I always Ji Ren Li Sia?? Living under a roof with pple other than your family is a totally different feeling. It can never be called your HOME no matter how comfortable or nice pple treat you. NEVER!!

Another day has passed and I have idled my day away just like that..did nothing other than packed my luggage and watch tv.. then was feeling damn frustrated and pek chek.. all the burden of the family now lies on me .. what the fuck why is it me got to feel frustrated over all these family matters .. I simply cannot stand all these nonsense and why the hell must I lead a stupid life like this? I really hate HIM !! he brought all these nonsense to my used to be happy home .. Why must I be bothered over all the money matters .. every month got to think if money is enough to last me through the months?? Why cant I just lead a simple life? I dun need all the luxury of having whatever branded goods or whatever ... I just want a simple life.. enuff to get me through every months and I will be really contented.. I really feel like buying an air ticket and fly to whichever isolated island and just spend the rest of the life there and dun care whatever fuck is happening around me !

Arghhh I feel so agitated and pek chek now ............... really feel like crying ='(

Thought of you at... |11:44 PM|

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